What do you do when the one thing you created and loved most is snatched away, and even a million-pound crowdfunding success can't save them? Ashley Cain reveals the harrowing transition from reality TV star to a grieving father who nearly ended it all on a bridge before a literal intervention changed his course. This is an exploration of how extreme physical agony and a "Club 100" mindset can turn the deepest trauma into a global mission for childhood cancer research.